New Year Resolutions

Do you ever make any?

I don't!

I figure if you're going to make a change in your life (style etc) that it should be something that is not thought about at the beginning of the year, but, all through the year.

I don't think I know, personally, anyone who has ever made a resolution and stuck to it :D

This year though, I'm acting out of normal behaviour and am going to make a resolution.

My resolution is to make more of an effort with my blogs!

I'm tired of myself being slack so beginning January 1, 2010, I will make more effect to post on both my blogs :D

I'm hoping to surprise myself and stick to it!

And the year draws near to an end

Wow! How fast has this year gone?

I know, too fast!

But so much has happened this year.

To me, anyway.

Started by turning 40! Big big big thing :D

Celebrated Justin's 6th birthday in March.

Also went to Melbourne in March for a BrAshA-T meet(ing)

Celebrated 18 yrs of marriage in April

Had the stroke in May :(

Went to BrAshA-T's Annual Gala Dinner in June

Connor turned 8 in June

Cameron turned 4 in August

Met up with friends from WA in September

Battled a terrible chemical reaction in November

Looking forward to Christmas but saddened for the anniversary of my Nana's death in December

I really miss you Nan xoxoxo

And will end the year with a bang (hopefully)

Will be glad to start 2010!

Its a new day

Well, what a wild ride the last couple of weeks have been. With the lead up to Christmas flashing by so quickly, Christmas Day was probably the best one I've had in so long.

Boxing Day ended up being the 2nd worst day of my year with my Nana going downhill so fast. I spent the 26th and 27th at her bedside with various family. I didn't want to go home (to my mum's) at night but was convinced to do so. Unfortunately about 1am 28th December, my nana died. It is all too fresh to be typing this without tears. I am so angry at myself for not staying through the night because I told Nan I would be there. I wouldn't let her die alone and that's exactly what ended up happening. I knew within myself that that was the last night she would be with us but the little bit of hope I had allowed people to convince me to go get some sleep. We got the phone call about 1am so then my parents, sister and myself all went back to see Nan. She looked so peaceful and I truly hope that she is.

The next few days were so hard and I don't think I slept more than 2 or 3 hours from the 26th to the 30th December. I put together a photo dvd, music cd and made the funeral flyers. It was a long job but I'm so glad I was able to do it for her.

Nan's funeral was on New Year's Eve in the morning. It was very beautiful. So many people came to farewell my Nan. She was such a beautiful person and so strong hearted. Many times drs told us to say goodbye yet Nan would still pull through. We had over 10 extra years with her and I know we should cherish each day of them but I still wish she was with us. But now her pain is at end.

I didn't see the new year in. I was just so exhausted physically and mentally. I was asleep by 8.30pm and didn't stir until just before dawn.

In remembrance of Dorothy Fisher
23rd March 1922 - 28th December 2008