Hump Day

When I was working whenever the week reached hump day (Wednesday) you knew the worst had past and there was only 2 more days to go lol Its funny the way we see things. Today I was walking home from school with Connor and I thought woohoo only 2 more days to go which of course lead my thinking to Hump day hahahahaha

Oh my ......

I think its time for me to hit the sack. I just looked at the clock and can't believe its 2.40am already :D Better go to bed so I can get up in time for church lol

Taking a deep breath

Today has been such an easy day. I love Saturdays cause it means I get to sleep in and basically do what I want to do. Gary is home all day so he gets to look after the boys.

It is so great having the land we do. We can send the boys outside to play without worrying about who is stopping at the fence or is the gate shut etc. I would never be able to settle if we were on a suburban block. Well I might be able to but I doubt the boys would have outside play :D Same reason why we don't have a pool while they are young. I would be paranoid the entire time and never have any peace.

And thinking about peace brings me back to God. For many many years the biggest struggle I have had is finding peace. I've prayed about it, meditated on it, read as many passages in the bible as I could find determined to find peace but really never did find it. I sometimes touched the edge of it but never long enough to grab it. But this year, I have finally achieved it.

In May, I had an operation that went wrong so badly I ended up in intensive care for 5 nights. I was on a respirator for 24hrs after having to be intubated during an emergency surgery the night after the original surgery. I woke up in ICU with this tube down my throat, tubes up my nose and coming out of my chest. I was terrified. I knew that I was close to dying. You know how some things you just "know", well I knew this without a doubt. I tried to pull the tubes out but the nurses were prepared for that. I spent hours writing on a piece of paper "please". Just that one word. The nurses knew what I was asking - for the tube to be removed - but of course it couldn't be cause at that moment, it was helping me breathe. For 4 days I had tormenting dreams and the worse part was smelling horrible smells that everyone kept telling me weren't there. On that 4th day it was just too much and I cried out for God. I just said "please God make it all stop" and it did. As quick as a snap of fingers, the torment stopped and from that moment I knew I was going to survive. At that moment I felt at peace. I knew God has listened and answered. Two nights later I was back on the normal ward and two days after that I was released from hospital much to the medical staff's astonishment. I remember the day before I went home, I had at least a dozen nurses and doctors come into my room to see for themselves because they couldn't believed I was even dressed in normal clothes let alone up and walking, talking and smiling at everyone :D

That peace that God gave me, I still feel today. Some days its a bit bogged down with daily struggles but when I remember to stop, take a deep breath and look, its right there waiting for me. I am so thankful that what I searched for, for so many years, I have finally found it.

Oops need to go, Cam has woken up and is crying.

As I wait for sleep

sitting by the window in my study, listening to the cicadas, I realise just how peaceful midnight can be. No blaring television, no excited children, no cranky just woken up husband (hehehehe). I realise just how tired my body is. Not so my mind. I could go on thinking about anything tonight but my body is having a hard time keeping up with my mind. So I sit and wait for sleep to claim my mind so my body can have rest.

I am so looking forward to art lessons tomorrow. I hope to have a step by step progress report here soon with photos :D

I had a really great day today. We started off by having to go make a layby payment at Maroochydore. Gary & I decided we needed to look for ideas for Connor & Justin for Christmas. The great thing was, normaly Gary will walk around for a 10 minutes and then he's grumpier than a bear and we have to leave, today though we walked through by Target & K-Mart for nearly 2 hrs just looking at things. We did lay-by a scooter and accessories for Cameron so his present is done :D

Then we headed over to Bunnings. I love Bunnings. So much to see and get ideas from :D I bought 4 more paint brushes for class tomorrow.

After that we got some lunch and had a really nice lunch together (with Cameron of course :B) then Gary went to bed (this nightshift is really a drag now after 14 yrs of doing it) and Cam & I just had our together time. Picked Connor up from school and then went and visited with Bonnie, Jono, Alia and Grace for a bit. It is such fun when I get together with Bonnie. We always laugh and its good knowing we can have a deep, thoughtful and intellectual conversation as well. Thank you Bonnie, for giving me back my D&Ms.

I then picked up Justin and the 4 of us went to Kawana so I could have a look around with the boys telling me unawares exactly what they are hoping to get for Christmas hehehehe Now I have some great ideas :p

I want to put my Christmas tree up this weekend so we'll see how that goes.

I should go to bed and read and hope my eyes just close.

And its over

Obama is now President elect. I do pray that God's hand is on the situation and spreads peace throughout the land to stop anxious hearts over Barack Obama being President. I pray that Obama and his family will remember their christian roots and let God lead him in his role of President and not be led by man who is against the words & wisdom of God.

Bleak and Icky

Today's weather totally suits my mood. Its bleak and icky. I've had to cancel two appointments cause I wasn't sure I could be there without throwing up. I keep having dizzy turns and just feel like my head is separated from my body lol

I've been watching the presidential race on Channel 7, good coverage. The polling is actually very close in a lot of states but I think most think Obama will win in the end. I believe the result will be God's will and in His will I have faith.

With the Ick Factor still in effect

I decided to make a quiche for the boys for dinner. Its simple & easy and you don't need to do hardly anything lol

4 eggs
1 1/2 cups milk
1 1/2 cups of cheese
1/2 cup SR flour (can use plain)
2-3 bacon rashers
1 onion (can use onion powder)

Beat eggs, add milk and flour. Mix well. Add bacon and cheese and mix well. Pour into greased pie dish and bake in moderate oven (180 deg) for about 45 minutes.

Yum yum yum :D

The ICK factor

That is what today has been. I've felt "icky" all day long. Not long after the boys went to school I went back to bed cause I felt really "off". I still feel nauseous and can't wait until its bedtime again. So I don't really have much to say :D

I am, not anxiously but maybe intensely, waiting for Tuesday to begin in USA. I am so interested in seeing how the vote pans out today and who will become the next president elect. I know how significant it would be if Barack Obama wins but personally I wouldn't like to see that. Not because of the colour of his skin but because I really don't believe in his party policies. I strongly believe in the sanctity of marriage and that life is conceived at birth and that from conception it is a baby not a glob of something waiting to turn.

This thought has led me to something that has weighed on my heart and mind for such a long time. I have always supported pro-life from the age of awareness where babies came from. I was a staunch pro-life supporter from the tender age of 13 talking to other girls about babies etc. My parents were not involved in any church and I know my decisions didn't run parallel to alot of family, but they were mine!

What really gets me and makes me cry are those people who raise an uproar over animal abortions but turn their head and look the other way when so many babies are discarded every single day. How can they say that the life of an unborn animal is so much more important than the life of the unborn child? Don't get me wrong, I love animals and animal cruelty sickens me but people are supposed to have dominion over animals not the other way round.

For me, the answer is simple, abortion is wrong and causes a lot more mental stress and damage than having the child does. I know that some will say its easy for me to say this without being there, but how does anyone know what path we have already walked? I would never condemn or judge a woman for having an abortion, I find it extrememly hard not to condemn those who guide a woman to that decision without availing her to support of keeping a baby. My heart cries not only for the lost child but for the woman who has had to make this decision and also to the father who is often given no say. Yes, I know, some women have had no say in becoming pregnant, that's true and heartbreaking. But what say has the child been given. There are so many people who cannot have children who would love the chance to give the discarded child everything they can. In a lifetime, what really is 40 wks?

Okay, I really was only going to post the first two lines but my fingers got away from me and felt I just had to type this.



Word to the wise, I love that delete button :D

Beef & Black Bean with Hokkien Noodles

I made this for dinner last night. Oh boy was it yummy! Cameron & Justin complained abit over the vegetables in it but everyone ate it. We even had seconds hahaha

Meet Flame & Spike

Today I got a call to say "Cavies are ready to be picked up". Yay! After waiting for baby guinea pigs to grow old enough they were finally ready. The boys are almost smothering them with love.

Here is Flame

and this is Spike

My dad built the hutch for us and put security screen over the top wire to stop dogs from ripping it out.